Giving up, or Pouring in?

I said to one today, "If I could but be a consistent member of the bride, the Lamb's wife, of the chaste virgin espoused to the Lord, how simple and bright all would be! If I could be simple as a little child of God placed near Christ, the first-born among many brethren, how bright all would be!" The answer was, "But what devotedness that supposes!" I replied, "Not what men call or mean by devotedness; they mean by devotedness, having a great deal to give up. I am part of that virgin - a child in the family of God - but I look up for the heart and mind of the Bridegroom, and all His love and grace, to be mine; I look up for Abba's love to free His child's heart. Will Christ's love, filling my heart and mind - will Abba's love, filling me to overflowing - be my giving up or His pouring in?"