9. "It is not exactly that I do not trust God, but I cannot be sure of myself; I am afraid even my faith is unreal.”

Faith is not the Saviour: Christ is. He is the unchanging One—"Jesus Christ, the same yesterday, and today, and forever." Faith is just the hand that lays hold of Him. You are not asked to trust yourself. The less confidence you have in yourself the better. Put all your confidence in the Lord Jesus. He is not unreal, and if your faith is centered in Him all will be well for time and eternity.
“Jesus, I rest in Thee,
In Thee myself I hide;
Laden with sin and misery,
Where can I rest beside?
'Tis on Thy meek and lowly breast
My burdened soul cloth find its rest.”