After much prayer and pondering I have decided to post some thoughts on all of this. I'd be glad to talk with any of you and since my phone has been ringing quite often, I'm nearly out of minutes. ...I must first say that just like you I have been blown away by the Urgent Blast...a total surprise to me...I don't have the inside scoop on this so no need to ask. I too have lots of questions.
Many have asked me what I'm going to do. Well I'm not one to be hasty in decisions except in the grocery store on an empty stomach. I woke up in the middle of the night realizing that the timing on all of this may be a blessing. WHAT? EBC MIAMI is happening...yup and I'm praying for them. But...this is a perfect time to wait on the Lord. When all of this happened, my emotions when haywire...I first felt like taking my football and going home, then I started being bombarded with ..."well what about this, what about that..huh!" Last night at Bible study, the Pastor talked about unforgiveness and said he hadn't planned on saying a few words about how destructive it is not to mention how offensive it is to God but he thought someone needed to hear it. You can bet it was me! Brothers and sisters regardless of where you are in all of this...please let there be no root of bitterness in your heart...we cannot allow anger, spite, bitterness, unforgiveness to dwell in our hearts...it is so very offensive to God. By the way...did you ever realize what is last in the list of things that are an abomination to the Lord in Proverbs 6:16? "There are six things which the Lord hates, Yes, seven which are an abomination to Him: Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that run rapidly to evil, a false witness who utters lies, and one who spreads strife among brothers." Regardless of the differences we have, we are all of One blood...the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ....just a simple reminder...yeah...mostly to myself.
I think Darrel may address much of this when he returns from camp and thinks through it all after meeting with the Advisory Board. If you know Darrel like I know Darrel, you know he is a man of prayer, a man who wants nothing more nor nothing less than to please God in all he thinks, feels, says and does...yes he is just like us...he has clay feet.
So rather than respond from emotions or go on limited information I ask you to seek the Lord in much prayer during this time. The Bible says in Proverbs 18:17 "The first to plead his case seems right, until another comes and examines him." I think emotions will settle down so you can think through things with a clear mind. I know this is really hard...I'm no different to than you...I feel wounded and am bleeding in pain too....His grace is always sufficent and He always provides an escape from temptation.
I love you guys...you are the very ones God has used to change my life. You are the ones I think about when I'm the Lone Ranger Seed Sower on the street corner. You are the ones who share your victories, your defeats, your resources, your hearts with me. God used Ray Comfort and WOTM to change my heart but He used GNN to change my very life. If I hadn't meet you and gone to EBC 5, I'm afraid I would have thought WOTM was really a great thing and I would have gone on to take the next Beth Moore Bible study. You are the ones who came along side of me...scared too..and helped me to let God stretch me beyond my wildest dreams. It has been nearly 2 yrs since my first Open Air at Johnny Rocket's in Daytona...who'd have ever guessed this woman who hid behind church work would be proclaiming the word of the Lord to those lost and headed to Hell. Praise God for leading me to GNN...it's not perfect, what ministry made of people is... but it certainly is a Seed Sower Sanctuary.
Finally my brothers and sisters...I love you. Be strong in the Lord...seek Him with all your heart...He is worthy...worthy is the Lamb. Count on my prayers.
This is a quote from a member of GNN that sums up how I feel....
Yes, Brother Darrel (and I'll certainly call him BROTHER) made a very big mistake, which he admits - he blew it.
It seems many here have blown it - we've forgotten that GNN is made out of brothers and sisters in Christ, who have joined and the LORD used to bring many, many lost souls to Christ. GNN has helped me tremendously, and I met Darrel at the EBC I went to, EBC-11. He's definately a man of prayer, a godly man who seeks the Lord, who's put all of his finances into GNN without expecting a return, and I'm so thankful to God for him. He's definately a brother in Christ, and he's made a mistake, but there's no reason to use such harsh words of scrutiny against ANYONE! The Lord Jesus told the disciples 'You don't know what spirit you're of,' when they said something harsh about Christ's enemies. He said, "For the Son of man is not come to destroy men's lives, but to save them. And they went to another village." Luke 9:56.
You can say what you want about GNN, and you can even have your way with Darrel's reputation (I don't think he minds), but please, remember why God allowed GNN to exist, and even Living Waters, and why there's a Classic Comfort thread...
Jesus came to save men. The heart of our Savior groans that His bride be readied. GNN and Living Waters, as is apparent to me, God used as instruments to do part of this task... The church on earth and in heaven, partly. My love goes to all of my fellow Christians who have given their lives for Christ, sharing the Gospel, handing out LW tracts (many started this way), open air preaching, everything...
I respect all that you have to say, my brothers and sisters. The good and the bad. If I really do believe in my Savior as much as I say I do, I'd give my life for the man who bashed Darrel and compared him to Jim Jones with the poison Kool Aid. I love you so dear.
I freely confess - if the Holy Spirit wouldn't have sent a man who heard Hell's Best Kept Secret to come and talk to me, I don't think I would have ever open air preached - I'm a coward and a meek chihuahua in my personality. But the Holy Spirit is in me, and is my boldness before men - I would run, when no man pursued... But in Christ, I'm as bold as a lion.
Thank the Lord, Praise the Lord! That I can even make this post - when I should be in my grave... My grave-plot beckons my name, the tombstone, my pillow, awaits my comfort. But Jesus Christ compels me with new life and boldness and zeal to not rest in peace, but tell every man about Himself - rest in Him.
KingJimmy wrote:
The Apostle Paul said it well in 2 Cor 4:5:For we do not preach ourselves but Christ Jesus as Lord, and ourselves as your bond-servants for Jesus’ sake.
This way is contrary to GNN's "leader."
I quote Darrel Rundus,
I'm nobody. Telling everybody. About somebody. Who can save anybody.
It's not about GNN. It's not about Living Waters, or a certain preacher. It's about the comforting arms of a man who gave His life for you and me - God Himself, the shoulders of Jesus Christ.