I wasn't targeting you for being self righteous.
I knew that...I was only trying to find some common ground for us. (Pitiful attempt on my part.)
I have never spent as much time in prayer as I have stayed out fishing.
For me, this statement redirect this whole thread in a direction that is honorable and also hits home brother. Now you are talking about something I can relate to and must respond to with repentance. Your transparent confession stirs up a Godly sorrow in me.
I know I am going to be ashamed.
Immediately I feel where you are coming from on this, and yet...must you and I resign ourselves to this? Is this the end of our testimony,...is there any reason why this has to be?
We both have made mistakes in our past...but brother I believe God is more gracious then we portray him. Paul told Timothy Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. I do not think God's approval standards, to those in Christ, are as outrageous as we make them out to be. The exploit Paul exhorted Timothy to perform is to correctly handle the word of truth, and not preach any heresy that destroys the faith of others in Christ such as saying the second coming is past. This door of approval is well within the reach of every Christian.
Brethren I sometimes fear that, in our earnestness for purity we erect doors that are well out of reach. We place burdens on one another that the Lord has not placed on us himself. I know I have done this. I've seen dancing in the church abused, and for a while I came strongly against any whiff of joy in some saint who forgot themselves in a worship service...oh I must have hurt some tender saint who simply loved the Lord with movement by my outspoken opinions.
I was dissapointed sorely by a pastor who was like a father to me, and for a while I was tempted to cast all pastors, indeed all 'organized' churches as an evil demographic. Why just last night I stopped by that church building to visit a friend, and as I walked through the halls reliving some of the past sentimentaly, shaking my head in disgust, I passed by a closed door with a window...a room filled with saints all in earnest prayer. What a faithless man I am, always seeing the world as it relates to me first. The Lord is faithful to those saints, as he is to me. Perhaps even more to them, because while I was walking around being superior towards their rich fat church, they were busy praying.
You see, at my heart I am a self-righteous person. You were right afterall brother. This is the great mountain that obscurs the sun in my valley...I know the sun will never leave but I still live in the shadows.
Brother, you and I need not resign ourselves to our shame. But I do not believe the path over that mountain is through a greater performance. Every achievement we reach, every exploit we perform, only reminds us of how far we fall short of our Elder Brother. I am not assuming this is your intent, but let's make sure for one another's sake!
I believe we must handle the word of truth correctly to show ourselves approved, needing not to be ashamed. This means we must preach all of the law, not just the parts we think we can keep and judge others by. We must preach all of the law, including the Promise.
Now if the Gospel is a work of man, preaching the whole thing is a scandal...men will abuse man's permission every time. It will be the end of moral earnestness in the Church!
But if the Gospel is a work of God, then we can commit ourselves to be faithful to it...not truncating it, not editing it, not managing it. This middle management of the Gospel, withholding the grace of God unless people are destitute or on their death bed, is cycnical faithless business.
As we approach our meetings in Canton (which is no speacial place other then a place of agreement...) I fear many our coming with the intent to ratchet up their efforts. If we come with this in mind, we will leave that place filled with dissapointment in one another...I know this just as sure as I am typing this.
Now I realize not everyone is coming to Canton, but I think the time of agreement is more important then the place. We are joined not by one location but by one Spirit!
In this joining we need to caution ourselves from chasing these extra efforts, all the demands we place on one another, and gaurd against our bitterness, dissapointment, mistrust, all of our sanctioned cynicism towards the dissapointing churches we know of. If we don't, regardless of our zeal for God, Canton will go on being just another city where just another conference was held.
We must come without presumption about any other person except ourselves. You see, on a human level that pastor in Detroit may be inferior to a few of us here at the SI. (sic) Yet the gulf between he and the best one of us, (sic) is nothing when compared to the gulf between God and us without Christ. Let's not get in the business of comparing works then.
So, I believe we must prepare for Canton to get a greater understanding of the Gospel, a deeper and closer walk with Christ, and not an ambition of greater works. We can take this to the bank brother...if we have this greater understanding, this greater abiding in Jesus when we leave that place...we will have greater works. But if we go to noodge, nettle, and nag for greater works and greater performance out of one another or even ourselves, ..well it will be just another trip around the mulberry bush.
I believe the flames of revival find their origin in the rugged honesty you shared in this very thread. Thank you for that spark...
MC