Well, nothing like making oneself an example to further a point ...
There is a word that has been stuck lately;
Regret.
Maybe it needs it's own airing elsewhere but I need to make a confession here. I regret some of the things mentioned here last night. The charge of 'humanism', took something of a derivative and made a muddle of it all. It was a poor way of stating it and a poorer extrapolation to base it upon that term. It was wrong. I regret it. Never intended to cast a pale over all this and yet ...
Also, made a muddle out of 'respect' just as well. There are some good men and women here, some pastors even that contribute here and it is a difficult thing to hear them often taken to task without ... some respect due to them. It is not the contorted 'man pleasing' or the further contorted 'God is not a respecter of persons' but ... if I may not wretch this completely out of it's context;
[i]For he is the minister of God to thee for good ... For for this cause pay ye tribute also: for they are God's ministers, attending continually upon this very thing ... Render therefore to all their dues: tribute to whom tribute is due; custom to whom custom; fear to whom fear; honour to whom honour.[/i]
Honor to whom honor. And it applies even more broadly, what we owe to each other as it applies here and as this article is trying to also point out.
If it isn't evident enough, a great deal of what was spoken here and carried over in various other postings is just an expression of frustration. Frustration when this setting inevitably takes course into what has been seen time and again over these years as another season of upheaval, strife, contention, ill-will, personal attacks, back biting ... And just as bad is the attempts too often to try and right it somehow, speak to it, mitigate it, mediate ... moderate- "moderators".
It did strike me in a more profound way later on in the evening just how ... impossible this all is when it is looked at seriously. Even after five years now, that this forum has not imploded from the inside out is a miracle of God's grace. There are times when it must seem to those looking into all a bewilderment why the whole thing isn't just shut down, in fact, it has been suggested, even if just for a season of it's own.
But there is a perplexity and complexity to it all. Try as we might otherwise, personal feelings get intertwined (case in point), personal .. outside knowledge of each other is often used against others, though they may know none of it, somehow are supposed to understand these things though they are not privy to it. It is a redundant mention, to couple this with 'factions' and again, unintentionally as they may be, yet to use this as weaponry .. "What you don't know about _____" is, well precisely the point, we don't know! Nor do those who would infer such things know what may be going on back of the attempts to mitigate and somehow keep some controls of the conduct and behavior, attitude (the general trouble) of the participants of this setting. All that without being 'controlling'. It is frankly a marvel. It would be far easier to just 'ban' or remove those bringing turmoil or confusion at every turn yet ... This very article goes a long way in expressing the attempts at being patient and long-suffering with each other and for good reason.
If we do not give place for time and hopefully a measure of allowance to just let things sink in we end up doing the thing I personal hate and yet go on doing anyways ... That is, 'forcing' a confession. It just doesn't work the majority of the time. I do hope that with all that is available here, all the sermons and messages, the articles and even the sharing and chiseling that goes on amongst ourselves that there is truly some ... change going on. Otherwise, we are stuck in gear and spinning our wheels. Time to change, time to ponder, time to ... consider.
Honestly, if we are going to be honest about it, it does come back full circle to the evidence of our praying, our lack of it. It's evident enough. My own folly and loquacity is evidence enough of it. It seems we can, I can harp on it continually and yet the knee-jerk reactions come forth, it spells us, it's telling, it's the proof of it all. Here we are trafficking in Holy things, in eternal matters, from a variety of view point and perspective. In different frames of mind and different, malleable dispositions even in any given moment. Certainly we are going to be at times ... emotional, and overwrought with confusion or giving off a wrong appearance, things are tangled and mangled, tossed and tempested ... grieved, troubled ... besides ourselves. How we tame these animal spirits as I read it recently, control the passions that overwhelm us. The forms and manners of extremisms, the baby and the bathwater, suspicions, accusations ... Oh, for some clarity!
Since I am going on, feeling so reticent to confess and draw out confession. Isn't it truly what we need far more of? Not a belittling of ourselves from so much introspection, but just a forthcoming of ... our regrets? I do think that many of us must have them, "I wish I wouldn't have said that", "I wish I would have just left well enough alone". "That's not really what I meant." But isn't his the very remedy for what ails us?
Pardon the dumping out of all this here, needed to get it off my chest, off my heart. I am concerned more and more about ... perception after all. Despite what I forwarded last night. Truly though, the perception is towards what this site is portraying. Is it glorifying to the Lord? If it isn't ... then it is a deep grievance, It can take some imagination but it also does at times come into the hearing in a variety of ways just what all this looks like, sounds like to those siting back peering into it all. It should give pause to concern. Think of all the eyes upon us as we write. We certainly do not consider enough the Lords looking into it all or we would likely not speak the half of what we do speak. But maybe to lower the gaze enough to our imagination, to the possibilities that do exist. Other churches and their members, other pastors, even other speakers that we may be somewhat familiar with due to their messages being presented here, that they themselves may be peering into all these things.
If we were face to face, in their physical presence .. would we be more .. sober ... careful ... considerate? Does it not give a least a pause, a sense of trembling ... some ... regret?
This needs to come back to Diane's considerations as the questions are being asked. I apologize again for taking these liberties here. Just want to leave off with a couple of notes that have been on my heart of late.
Walking in the Spirit.
"I was in the Spirit on the Lords day"
The evidence of the Holy Spirit, cutting through all the words and commotion and discussion. Do we see the evidence of Him. And acknowledge that. A couple of verses that have been percolating for some time;
[i]That the communication of thy faith may become effectual by the acknowledging of every good thing which is in you in Christ Jesus.[/i] Phm 1:6
"Every good thing". Those we disagree with, those that may cause us some irritability, any good thing, every good thing. That we might recognize those and make mention of them. And just as well, grapple with the reasons why we find those of us irritable in the first place, perhaps "Is it I?" applies more than we know.
Lastly.
Reading through Alexander Whyte's great book on prayer and in one of those interesting moments where one takes a point away far different then was intended ... Those great revelatory moments when scripture may speak in another way, not out of it's context but ... Goodness, speak already!
Luk 11:6 For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him?
His way and manner of drawing off this whole parable is tremendous but it struck me differently.
[i]I have nothing to set before him[/i]
All because I did not pray and so I have nothing to set before you.
Thanks for the opportunity and you bearing with me here. Pray for the man, pray for this site ... pray for one another.
[i]Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law.[/i]