need prayers i am getting under attack again

The past week almost in a half i was doing a lot better, i almost felt as if things were going to be better for now on and that my relationship with God was right again, but as soon as things started going better the attacks o me from the enemy started to come again on my mind and body. The enemy loves putting evil thoughts constantly in my head and accusing me of them and then attacks my body to. Can you please pray for me to stand strong and that the Lord would fight these enemies for me or whatever the Lord pleases.

thanks for the prayers, i did very good most of the day, but then as soon as i started feeling great all those thoughts just bombarded me wicked thoughts. I know that most people are going to resist the enemy, but to tell you the truth that these attack had got so bad that everytime i tried to resist them for the past few months they have overcome me everytime and my condition only got worse. It wasn't until the last maybe week and a half or two or weeks that i said Lord everyones praying for me, i am confessing and trying to do everything right before you and even resisting the lies of the enemy and standing my ground and i have only got worse, and i told him i can't fight this anymore please fight for me and that is when things changed and got better, not completely but they got a lot better. For me i can except that Christ's shed blood covers my sin all my sin, that is not the problem. The problem is that the enemy is disguising evil thoughts in my head towards others who have health problems, sometimes he tries to get me to laugh about their situation and i feel as if maybe the thoughts are coming from me because they just keep coming and i feel as if anyone to laugh and someones problems like that i deserve to be punished for it, i don't want the thoughts, but they just won't leave, i feel so guilty to think this way, i hate it.

really need your prayers satan really has a stronghold in my mind, these evil thoughts will not leave me and this evil lauhter will not leave me, i am being tortured in my mind and body and spirit. I have been begging God with n deliverance, i don't know what to do anymore. I did read that Watchman Nee part about the blood of Christ i actually opened it up in his book normal christian life that i have at home. It made sense, but these thoughts that the enemy keeps putting in my mind haven't stopped, when i read the word it does this and throughout the whole day i get attacked with evil thoughts towards others and this evil laughter within me towards others, i don't know why God is not setting me free.

You said, "...I don't know why God is not setting me free."

Because you need to repent. Unless you repent, you'll perish.

Jesus said "...the truth shall make you free." John 8:32

When I say repent I don't mean "turn from your sins and turn to God" as some would like to say. I mean stop thinking you must do something and begin to believe that though you are an enemy of God right now by those thoughts you feel bad over, Christ died for you; while you were yet a sinner, Christ died for you. He loves you. You've got to despair of yourself. Hope for forgiveness and mercy from Jesus. If you don't change your mind from thinking you must do something to believing in Christ, you will die in your sins.

"But to him that doesn't work, but believes on Him that justifies the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness." Romans 4:5

The truth is, whether you work or whether you don't work, you will only be saved by God's grace. "For by grace are you saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God." Ephesians 2:8

Nothing shall be able to separate you from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

If you sin today, that sin cannot separate you from the love of God. If you don't sin today and do a bunch of good, it doesn't cause Him to love you anymore because in Jesus Christ you have been washed and you have been sanctified. 1 Corinthians 6:11

Your identity is hidden with Christ in God. The Bible puts it this way: "...your life is hid with Christ in God." Colossians 3:3

Do you believe?

If we believe not, yet He abides faithful: He cannot deny Himself. 2 Timothy 2:13

Paul i see what your saying, but i am not sure if that is the issue i am struggling with demonic attacks, but also with the fact that i am realizing i have the inability to repent and even have faith unless the Lord provides it to me, i don't have the ability, but i can seek until i am completely hardened. Also was going to ask for prayers again, i have been getting attacked strongly again in my mind or thought life and my body.

Paul i see what your saying, but i am not sure if that is the issue i am struggling with demonic attacks, but also with the fact that i am realizing i have the inability to repent and even have faith unless the Lord provides it to me, i don't have the ability, but i can seek until i am completely hardened. Also was going to ask for prayers again, i have been getting attacked strongly again in my mind or thought life and my body.

I have talked to a few people about deliverance on here, so i don't want to hurt anyones feelings, but i really think i need to find someone experienced in deliverance again, i have tried seeking the Lord on my own, but things really aren't getting that much better. If anyone can help again, i am serious about seeking deliverance again.

Thanks brother, i have thought long over what sins i have not let go of. Right now what i could come up with as far as my sins go are: putting things before God's word and prayer time, just my time with God alone is putting sports like basketball and football before the Lord or putting the computer and doing things on the computer instead of spending more time with the Lord. I have tried putting scripture first and the Lord first, but it then becomes almost where i just feel like i am still not free, i feel like i have lost that grace in my heart. Also i struggle with all the sins i confessed and renounced, i find myself almost falling right back into being anger and jealous and bitter towards people even though i wanted to forgive everyone. Or i fall back into my struggle with lust after being so adamant about not doing it anymore, or plan to dedicate myself completely to the Lord and then i become dull to it and fall back into my struggle with putting the Lord first. I can never seemed to be discilpined with going to church or bible study, reading my bible daily, etc.It seems i continue to go through this, for some time now. But anyways, if i had to sum it up, i just kind of am lost about everything, i really haven't heard the voice of the Lord for sometime now, at time i believe i have, but definitely not like i use to. I really don't know brother, i am just seeking, but seem to b going in a circle a usual, i really need the Lord Jesus to move upon my life and i need Him to be a reality again in my life.

Brothers and sisters I really need your prayers, i am being very sincere about this, please the enemy has been attacking me extremely bad in my body and putting evil thoughts continually in my mind. So you guys can understand me better, the enemy puts evil thoughts in my mind and then i begin to feel extremely guilty and then has such a stronghold on me that i cant seem to believe that i don't deserve to be punished, but anyways the enemy has been affecting my health. Please can you pray for protection, my faith, and deliverance. I dont understand the whole situation completely, so i need prayer to understand it better, whether or not their some door that needs to be closed that i don't know of or something i need to believe or not believe anymore. I have been reading the word daily, but i just get over these spiritual attacks, it is affecting my thought life and my health o much, i really need you to keep praying for me, i know now the enemy wants to destroy me. Please keep me in prayer.

Enemy has been attacking me extremely bad in my body and putting evil thoughts continually in my mind.

The next time your tempted, praise the Lord with all that you have in you. I have found that when I am being tempted I say the name of Jesus outloud and in my mind and the temptation goes away speedily.

The next time you have a dirty thought, cast it down. Yes, cast it down, imagine in your mind stamping on it. But it takes some effort on your part, it takes your cooperation.

What do you want the most, the pleasure in sin for a season or being free?

Every man will say "being free" of course, but when the temptation comes the story changes. We want what the temptation is offering because it appeals to the lust that is already in our members.

Did you know that every man has a lust of some kind? And there are times that we are enticed and drawn away with it. It's there and will probably remain there to our dying day. However, it doesn't mean that we let it control us.

The sooner you get that settled in your heart the better it will be for you; that failure is a part of growing.

So you fell, well get back up. It doesn't matter how many times you fall down, keep crying out to the Lord for help and get up again, it's the crying out to God for help that makes all the difference in your journey through faith. Even when you enjoyed what you fell into, keep going back to the Lord for help.

When you started this thread you were in the realm of fretting. You were engulfed in the fear of falling into sin again and it was overwhelming you. Again, settle it in your heart that your going to fall. The sooner you accept that the better because that fear will constantly come upon you and the enemy will use it against you.

Don't wallow in your self pity or say "oh woe is me", get up from sinning and say, "Father I sinned again, cleanse me from all unrighteousness."

Don't fail to turn your sins over to Him because remember Christ is our sin bearer, He took the sins of the world upon Himself and He became sin for us. If you hold unto sin, your holding unto something that is rightfully His. So give it to Him because He alone knows how to forgive you. Fob it onto Him as soon as you can, if you don't death starts to spread and your heart will become hardened and you don't want that to happen.

Remember, it doesn't matter how many times you sin, get right back up again asking Him to forgive you. In the beginning of our journey with God, there are some of us that seem to live a "sin repent, sin repent" walk. But remember when you continue to call upon the Lord for help, that status will change over time as you learn to grow in grace and in the knowledge of Him.

i wanted to encourage you, brother. have you studied romans 7?

Romans 7:15-25, New American Standard Bible (NASB)

15 For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. 16 But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. 17 So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. 19 For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. 20 But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.

21 I find then the [a]principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. 22 For I joyfully concur with the law of God [b]in the inner man, 23 but I see a different law in [c]the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner [d]of the law of sin which is in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from [e]the body of this death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin.

...further reading if you're led in romans.

i would also GREATLY encourage you to read watchman nee's "the normal christian life" as his book is a study on romans 6-8 especially. i pray it frees you brother! here's a link to nee's book online to read for free:

http://www.ccel.org/ccel/nee/normal.html

Ecclesiastes 8:8 There is no man that hath power over the spirit to retain the spirit; neither hath he power in the day of death: and there is no discharge in that war; neither shall wickedness deliver those that are given to it.

"There is no discharge in that war".

Your in a war brother and you may as well get used to it.

What you don't like and the same goes for us is that when we sin we don't like the reprecussions of our sinning. No one does! The Lord had reminded me a few years back that "God is not mocked, whatsoever you sow your going to reap." And I reaped all right. Long periods of depression and heartache. God was teaching me something that it's not worth giving into temptation. That feeling of separation from Him was too much, yet He wasn't far at all, it just felt that way.

I've been there. I've had the attacks, fretted and was always anxious, always looking for an easy way out and never found it. Running around the countryside looking for anyone to pray me out of these attacks and they never came. I had to endure it, live through it, BUT He never forsook me through it all. In fact, I long for those days. You have no idea the work that He doing through you through these trials, through these 'attacks'. I long for those days because I was more needy then. I needed Him all the time.

Brother you made a great point, i have been going all over the countryside getting prayer for everyone.LOL. It is kind of crazy isn't, i just seem to be running in circles and not getting anywhere for sometime now. But, seriously thank you guys for your wisdom, i really appreciate your concern for me and your help. This is very difficult time again in my life. It is something i wondered about these evil thoughts whether they were coming from my heart or not. I think possibly what might be happening is that i have had unforgiveness, bitterness, anger, that i have not let go in my heart and it is possible that i have evil spirits of hate and unforgiveness tormenting me with hateful thoughts. Some of these thoughts i do not want to be thinking i know for sure, but i am not surprised that this because of my sin.

Actually i have the watchman nee book at home, i am very familiar with the war of the flesh and spirit as it talks about in romans chapter 7. I have come to the point i think where i realize their is nothing good in me, i can do nothing righteous, i can't even believe the truth, it has t be all of grace, as the psalms says, only power belongeth unto God, he gives everything for us to be sustained. You know it would be easier for me to focus on that if i was being tormented by attacks from the enemy constantly, it is just really hard, all day being attacked.

I just sent an email to someone about everything that is basically going on, i tried to go into better detail in this letter to not leave out anything. I still didn't write everything, but this might help people understand a little better. I am not the best at writing, so this might sound repetitive or not put together good, but anyways here it is.

Hey Mark thanks again. The last few days have been really bad. If i could explain what is going on, maybe you could pin point something because very much being overwhelmed by this. I was extremely under attack by evil spirits yesterday that for some reason are trying to paralize my body and hurt me and tormenting me in my thoughts. This has been going on i guess for some time now but has been extremely bad the last 10 months. But, over the past 2 years the specific one that is tormenting me the most right now in my thought life began to happen. All i know is that i began to struggle with a spirit of almost laughter or something over the misfortune of others. If i was around others and i heard about someones death or something bad happened to someone their was something whether within me or outside of me that almost would laugh about was going on, or something. Apart of me would feel terrible and feels terrible about what is happening, but then apart of me is wondering why i am feeling that way or why their is a spirit of laughter or whatever it is. Then in april of 2011 this year i actually preached on good friday at my church and my struggle with this problem grew worse even when we watched a video of the passion of christ with music in the background, and i was having the same thing happen watching Christ dying. But, anyways i couldn't pray for people or even want anyone to tell me bad news because this would happen constantly. Then in april i hurt my back really bad and was out of work for 5 weeks, 3 weeks into this i had got so bad i could barely move my body and my back had got really bad, i had went to the hospital 3 times and they found nothing wrong. Then it kept getting really bad, to the point i wasn't sure if i was ever going to get better. Then one afternoon i cried out to God all night, an ha people praying for me a lot. I woke up and my wife wanted me to eat subway she had bought and i said i didnt want any and i was very fearful. She then tried to encourage me to have faith in God. Then we prayed and i asked the Lord to take this burden off of me. At the time i had very bad swelling in my upper neck and back area. I got up after praying with her an i began to feel as if the problem completely was gone. And it was, the swelling was gone, that week i was cutting the grass and doing many things again. The Lord healed me, but then the spirit of laughter came back towards peoples misfortunes. My mom had a problem with her hands and my sister had a problem with her knee and the spirit would try to get me laugh about it and it tormented me. I then would feel guilty about it and go through the continual process of confessing and repenting of the evil thoughts. Then i also started getting attacked in my neck area and the Lord revealed to me i had been under demonic attack. I began to resist the enemy for the next couple of weeks with a lot success, but then i went back to work at the assisted living place i was working at the time and where i was leading bible studies. The first day back i started being overcome by the evil spirits in my back area again, but i stayed their for 5 months fighting until i was overcome by them and i quit. I would struggle during the 5 months with that spirit of laughter towards the elderly and their health problems and would get evil thoughts to come int my head towards them. I kept on hearing a spirit that would constantly tell me i was going to go paralized all the time, i could do nothing to stop it. The spirits also would attack and tell me i was going to be punished if did basically anything wrong like struggling with lust or the evil thoughts. It basically got to the point that the spirits started convincing me if i went to work i would be punished or if i worked with a girl i would be punished. I would be in constant torment. So i quit my job thinking that was the answer or that place was the problem but i found out it wasnt. Things only got worse. I was constantly getting harassed by this spirit of fear and worry over my health problems, could not get it off my mind no matter how much i prayed, read scriptures, or sought the Lord. Somedays i cried out all day to no avail and even today i still do. Then it has been almost 5 months since i quit and i have been tormented by spirit still, they attack my body and my health and my thoughts, when i tried resisting them, they come back at me a lot harder and overcome me. The only time i seem to gain any ground has been the last 2 months when i have fasted or tried giving the burden to the Lord. But i have lost almost 40 pounds because i have fasted in the summer to. I can't fast forever. But anyways when the spirit of laughter comes up towards peoples misfortunes i become so frustrated and upset and feel so guilty i began to believe i deserve to be punished or deserve the same thing i am thinking like that about. I go through this stage of confessing renouncing and repenting constantly, but then as i do, then i get another evil thought, it just wont leave, and i have sought the Lord so much for this. This past week it only has got worse, their a spirit that amost manipulating my feelings and thoughts and trying to get me to think evil about others and like a cursing spirit towards others. To want bad to happen to them, i absolutely cant get any control over it. Again when i do this then they attack my body. It just won't leave and i have gone through what could this be, what door i have i opened. I remember as a child i struggled with evil thoughts and a temptation to hurt my dogs and a temptation would come to kill them with an ask, but i loved my dogs and wouldn't want that ever., so i resisted it but things like that would happen. Also driving in the car with my sister and this overwhelming temptation to take the steering wheel my sister was controlling and taking it off the road, but i never did it, because i didnt want to.Also when i first began to read the scripture i remember as i would re Christ's name or God's i would have this hatred over reading their name and i was like where is this coming from, why am i angry, i shook it off and it left. So my point is i dont know if those situations can bring some light into maybe why this might be a problem. I don't know what door was opened, i have confessed every known sin and renounced them and have repented of them. But where is this cursing spirit coming from and why is their a spirit of laughter within me, and why are these demonic attacks so bad? Most of the demonic activity started when i began to live in an apartment with my wife before we were married, but their were signs of it before that when i began to live in sexual sin with her, i had huge problems with jealousy and their was always something spiritually that i foolishly didn't understand at the time. I became what i thought was a born again christian in october of 2003, being led by Christ. But i had a lack of knowledge and i hung out with unbelievers and did not know the scriptures that much at the time, though i was hearing the Holy Spirit and being convicted very my sins.But i lived in rebellion with my wife for 3 and a half years in sin without being married and she was unsaved. I really was walking in darkness in that time, i wanted to repent, but i always gave into the flesh. I got married trying to make things right, but it has only been years of torment and pain. In five years of being married i have had only maybe a little over a year without severe demonic attacks on my back, mind, etc. During that time i lead two bible studies and was going to school, but sadly i was struggling inwardly with a harened heart, not hearing the voice of God, became very critical, judgmental, hateful, unforgiving, selfish, i became exactly what romans 1 and galatians lists of the sins of the flesh. This has brought confusion of my salvation and assurance. I have been crying out to God for so long now and i really haven't told you all the demonic attacks. I use to have spirits attac my memory, my eyes, spirits trying to convince i was not human. I tried to take vitamins during this to see if they would help, but they haven't. I know its demonic, but Mark i have no idea what to do. I have talked to everyone, but really nothing has helped much. I use to play around with angel tarot cards, went to a psychic, use to ask my friend about the future about my life a little, also i tried casting out spirits out of people at my caregiving job who had dementia which might not have been a smart thing and their is probably more but i have confessed all i know and really it hasn't done much.

i just burned the copy and listening to it, it is very good, thank you.

sure need some prayer requests for protection right now and whatever door has been opened that it would be closed, i just am so confused with this situation and i am being attacked in my body and thoughtlife continually. My faith is either being blinded by these demonic spirits or i am losing my faith. I am struggling to think the right way and to serve the Lord at all. Today was another struggle i had another incident where i actually felt something hit the back of my neck again, this has happened before. I try to resist the evil spirits and seem to get some progress and then they attack me very strongly. I know i have believed some lie from the enemy somewhere down the road and i still most likely am, i am having a hard tie getting out of this the enemy has a stronghold on me. What else can i do, i have begged everyone for prayer, tried going on limbs and not ask anyone for prayer requests and tried just trusting God and still things havent got better, i have fasted and have almost like 50 pounds, does God really want me to go through this. I mean get evil thoughts coming in and out of my head daily and then i get accused for the thoughts and then i start getting attacked in my body because of this and then i try to resist to no avail everytime, the enemy gets me some how or someway. Please pray for me still and stand with me in prayer, this is tormenting me, i can't seem to think the right way either.

It is good to hear people who have exprienced some of this before, most people dont seem to be as attacked as others, we are all attacked and tempted, but i guess my situation is a little different, i have been attacked for 5 years basically now and it is because of my sin i know that for sure it is because of me. Sexual sin is the big cause i believe, that is when everything really went wrong in my life, through sexual sin and it seemed the more i fell into it the more i have struggled physically. I know the scriptures say that if we sow to the flesh we will reap corruption, it is true i am perfect example of messing around in sin unrepentant and i really have ruined my life with torment because of it and my wifes life.

thanks man i appreciate it. I talked to a deliverance minister today who told me that it sounds like i have a witchcraft curse on me. But i don't know, i also believe strongly that it has something to do with my sin of course, he said that it does too.

thanks for the encouragement. I think i have come to the conclusion that I only need to trust Christ in all my situations and go to him alone. Also that i need to dedicate my life to God's word before all things.I need to stop running to en, that really hasn't helped or deliverance ministries.

i think i really have come to the point of being at loss at what to do. I just recently tried to put the Lord first in my life, putting his word first and avoiding sports and computer, not asking others for prayers or go to deliverance ministers,, but sadly everything just fell apart again, i did have a day or two that seemed to get better, but i again was overcome by everything. Started getting attacked in my body again and in my mind. I don't know if their something that i just not have thought about being the problem, but i want to know. I don't have much strength in my mind so if you could pray for my mind and protection of my mind and thoughts, my health is under attack, i can barely work because of these attacks, i am again about to lose my car because i cant work because of this all, i can't support my wife and honor, i am just a mess. Also my faith in Christ has just seemed to disappear as much as i try to live for Christ and believe on him i end up falling flat on my face and lose desire to seek the Lord and when these attacks dont stop through my prayer all day it only makes feel in anguish. I dont understand my life, over the past 5 years i have had so much anguish and pain in my life, but this is the hardest for me because i have not been able to overcome this time and seems the Lord has been silent a lot, i don't hear his Holy Spirit. The worse thing is when you think you have the answer to deliverance and our going to be set free, which i have had a few days of bright spots and i thought i was going to be set free, but i just did not have the strength to overcome and i fell right back and worse off. I want to live for Jesus, but right now i don't have any answers to my problems anymore, i have ran out. All i can do is try to stand against the lies of the devil and know the Lord is not out to punish me and condemn me, please keep me in prayer, what i am going through is something i cant do on my own.