I think that this is a relevant issue today, for us all. As many of you may know, I served in Viet-Nam as a combat Marine, and killed, was wounded too, and shivered many a night as enemy mortars were "walked through" our perimeter, exploding in thunderous blasts that seemed sometimes inches away from my fox-hole, while being scores of miles away from any other units or help. [ I was not yet born again, either..]
I saw a lot of people die. This scarred me, and affected my life in very odd ways. I became addicted? to guns....I slept with three loaded guns at my reach for many, many years, I sometimes did not feel secure unless I carried a gun, and often I would awake in the middle of the night after hearing the slightest whisper of a sound, and strap them all on, and stalk through the house, to attack the unseen burglar. This was after I was born again.
Thank God I never had to use them. God never forsook me during this time, as fear and paranoia manifested, and believe it or not, He even used me to minister some, and also revealed Himself to me.
Was it right. No, I was not trusting in God...Was it truly sin?. It was motivated by fear. I understand that perfect love casts out all fear; I know that, but at the time, I had not yet been fully healed...inside. I have given away my guns, except for one shotgun.
I want to suggest something to the husbands and the single men on this forum. IF, men broke into your home, to harm you, and possible rape your wife of children, would you defend yourself? and your family? And if in doing so, would it be evil?
It is one thing to walk in peaceful non-violence for yourself; that would be a much easier choice. I have been confronted by violent men, Muslim extremists, [ ever-so-slightly in comparison ], and believe that I would overcome my fear of death there, and stand, and be willing to; ....but for the sake of my innocent granddaughter?....and apart from the Gospel?
I know that Jesus or the Apostles would lay down their flesh, and trust and believe....but Am I that strong? I hope that the grace of God would be upon me sufficiently so that I would not sin, but stand, and that is a far as I can take it....because my weakness and cowardliness knows no bounds....Who can trust in their flesh?......
Remember brave Peter: But Peter said unto him, "Although all shall be offended, yet will not I."
And Jesus saith unto him, Verily I say unto thee, That this day, even in this night, before the cock crow twice, thou shalt deny me thrice.
But he spake the more vehemently, If I should die with thee, I will not deny thee in any wise.
............ Likewise also said they all.".Mark 14
Either God will give us grace in that day to trust and obey, or he won't. I think He will, in spite of our weak and prideful resolve, whatever it may be.
"Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life."
Amen: Fear not.