ok, i get ya...i understand......y'know this mode of communicating is fraught with all kinds of pitfalls.
you cant HEAR a person speak...i CANNOT LOOK into your heart.....we dont KNOW each other face to face......many many pitfalls.
the only reason i brought up Paul's, "neither Jew nor Gentile" reference is that its been zinged my way MORE than a few times, forgive my assumption, and please forgive any ill tone i might seem to use, or any accusations....because i really dont believe that about YOU...
when i start to get twiggy,is when folks tell me to "calm down"....or "why you so emotional?".....or, as you said,."take a deep breath"....ect....which i KNOW you didnt mean in offense......but these dark days, i DO get emotional, my heart is grieved on SO MANY levels, both personal, and looking at the state of the world, or at the state of the Body of Christ......
that said, i did not intend on being nasty,or insulting about ANY way you write....i understand you just fine, please forgive me for any insult or ill spoken word in that regard, as i esteem you and all men higher than myself.
walk with me for just a second, and look thru my eyes....here i am, not only born PHYSICALLY a Jew, but also as a child and young man raised in the Faith, in the synagogue, as a Jew.
Now, as i testify that Jesus is Messiah ALREADY COME, that His Blood cleanses US from all sin, and the Door to Yahweh has been opened by Jesus for Gentiles, to be considered Sons of Abraham, the man of Faith......do you realize that my own people, those of the tribe of my flesh......consider me a rip roaring apostate?....THEY dont even consider me a Jew....not that i would even CARE ONE WHIT, the opinion of fallen man, nor have any calling to GO BACK to the synagogue....even to do stealth 'evangelism"...God has not made that call on me.......nor has He called me into what can be termed a "messianic Jewish" synagogue (slash "church)......which is a half and half cultural construct in many ways, God bless the saints who worship in such an ekklesia.....i dont feel at "home" there either......so then we have the various denominations of the New Testament church.
MANY MANY denominations,each with their own particular "traditions", or "theologies"....."what we believe(s)"...etc.."some follow Calvin", "some follow Finney"....do you get me?....it's almost like a copy of a synagogue........man TRIES to institutionalize,and organize THE BODY OF CHRIST and unless you "yes and amen" the ABC's of the "what we believe(s) of the various denomonations....forget it.....either you keep your mouth shut, and "play along with", hide behind a pillar, or sit frozen in a pew....just a passive walking wallet, to drop a check into the offering plate, so some seminary trained , properly credentialed, "ordained" hireling ...i mean pastor, can give "HIS flock", a nicely prepared 3 point 27 to 45 minute long sermon to a group of passive listeners.....and i'm not even covering the once vibrant "mainline" denominations......i'll get to them in a second...i'm speaking now of what can be called "evangelicals"....those who traffic in "decisions"....."with all heads bowed, and every eye closed". etc......i do bless God for every sin laden soul that comes to Jesus....dont mistake me, but we've now got into a pro-forma, by the numbers "religion"...complete with its own vocabulary, "christianese", so that other members of the club both can identify each other, but also maintain "order" AND exclusivity........"evangelicals" also can serve "caesar" as well come election time, and they dont even NEED a 'church', when a high profile "parachurch" will do just as well....these are high profile media types, who go on constantly about "taking back America for Christ"...or "having a Biblical worldview"....to do that, they need equally loud, high profile targets.....such as the vaunted "homosexual agenda"....or the "liberal media bias".
(btw, its a dream relationship, because the "homosexual agenda" the "liberal media elite", the ACLU, love to be in the crosshairs of "dominionist christian reconstructionist" evangelical parachurches, because this "battle" ensures that both get the attention they crave, because "attention", equals publicity, equals 'coverage', which equals a constant stream of MONEY, whether it be thru donations, all tax deductible, it can be the small donor, driven to fear and angst by the constant prattle over the radio, TV or internet...or large donors, whose real motivation is commercial, business driven advantage given to those who get ACCESS to elected officials, or unelected perma-government types in the national security/ military state we live in....BIG money for the taking there, and dont think for a second these multi-media "parachurches" dont want to grab every penny they can lay their hands on, while easing their seared consciences with the delusion,they're doing it all for Jesus, because after all, we have to "take back america for Christ")
i stay as far as i possibly can get from this twisted enterprise.....just as i stay as far as i can from the once vibrant mainline protestant denominations, who believe in THEIR current delusions, that God is "okay" with ordaining homosexual clergy, "okay" with the spectacle that is called "high religion", yet is empty and devoid of the Holy Spirit.....but make sure you dress well for Sunday service, and please sign the petition out by the door calling for the denominations financial divestiture of any company that does business with Israel, because after all, the UN says "Zionism is racism".....and it is Israel that stands against any peace in the middle east.....dont we all know THAT?!?....and by the way, right next to the petition are invitations to Jim and John's upcoming "Life Commitment" ceremony, which will be led by pastor Barbara in the basement fellowship hall, with a potluck meal to follow this 'ceremony'.....ALL INVITED!!!
i'm sorry to go on like such, but as the LORD leads everything i wrote above, is true and happening now....much to my grief. oh course, in many aspects, i'm making generalizations. and not EVERY SINGLE church is either a rabid fleshly babylonian dominionist american imperial hell hole, nor a backslidden, sin soaked main line sham, but i know this, that right now in America, the church is in disarray....division.....scandal,....and for years has been regarded by outsiders as justa place where self righteous hypocrites go to hide on Sundays.
its that bad....just now as i was closing my eyes, praying what to write in conclusion, what we "can do", i had a vision of my bare back getting ready to recieve the scourge,that old roman whip, where they would imbed old pieces of metal and stone.....its what they opened Jesus' back with....it was just a 10 second vision.
Because i dont know what to say anymore, or do....EXCEPT what God Himself laid on my heart, have a 20 by 20 very simple wooden bldg put on my front pasture as a house of prayer, ask Jesus to Pastor these prayer meetings and to send other desperate, hungry followers of Messiah to be of one accord and JUST PRAY, until our desperate hunger is answered. God is not going to let this all go on much longer, the time grows short, and there are thousands of nuclear tipped missiles just waiting in their silo's, ready for release....it could all happen in the next five minutes, we've killed 40 million babies in this nation, you know their blood crys out to Him.