Faithful waiting on God's guidance leads to provision and fulfillment of His plans.
In youth, Stilling was extremely poor, destitute of the common comforts and necessaries of life. After a long season of anxiety and prayer, he felt satisfied that it was the will of God that he should go to a university, and prepare himself for the medical profession. He did not at first make choice of a university, but waited for an intimation from his heavenly Father; for as he intended to study simply from faith, he would not allow his own will in any thing. Three weeks after he had come to this determination, a friend asked him whither he intended to go. He replied he did not know. "O," said she, "our neighbor, Mr. T., is going to Strasburg, to spend the winter there, go with him."
This touched Stilling's heart; he felt that this was the intimation he had waited for. Meanwhile, Mr. T. entered the room, and was heartily pleased with the proposition. The whole of his welfare now depended on his becoming a physician; and for this, a thousand dollars at least were requisite, of which he could not tell in the whole world where to raise a hundred. He nevertheless fixed his confidence firmly on God, and reasoned as follows:
"God begins nothing without terminating it gloriously. Now, it is most certainly true, that he alone has ordered my present circumstances, entirely without my co-operation. Consequently, it is also most certainly true, that he will accomplish every thing regarding me in a manner worthy of himself."
He smilingly said to his friends, who were as poor as himself—"I wonder from what quarter my heavenly Father will provide me with money?" When they expressed anxiety, he said—"Believe assuredly that he who was able to feed a thousand people with a little bread lives still, and to him I commend myself. He will certainly find out means. Do not be anxious, the Lord will provide."
Forty-six dollars was all that he could raise for his journey. He met unavoidable delay on the way; and while at Frankfort, three days' ride from Strasburg, he had but a single dollar left. He said nothing of it to any one, but waited for the assistance of his heavenly Father. As he was walking the streets and praying inwardly to God, he met Mr. L., a merchant from the place of his residence, who says to him, "Stilling, what brought you here?"
"I am going to Strasburg, to study medicine."
"Where do you get your money to study with?"
"I have a rich Father in heaven."
Mr. L. looked steadily at him, and inquired—"How much money have you on hand?"
"One dollar," said Stilling.
"So," said Mr. L. "Well, I'm one of your Father's stewards," and handed him thirty-three dollars.
Stilling felt warm tears in his eyes; says he—"I am now rich enough, I want no more."
This first trial made him so courageous, that he no longer doubted that God would help him through every thing.
He had been but a short time in Strasburg, when his thirty-three dollars had again been reduced to one, on which account he began again to pray very earnestly. Just at this time, one morning, his room-mate, Mr. T., says to him, "Stilling, I believe you did not bring much money with you," and offered him thirty dollars in gold, which he gladly accepted, as an answer to his prayers.
In a few months after this, the time arrived when he must pay the lecturer's fee, or have his name struck from the list of students. The money was to be paid by six o'clock on Thursday evening. Thursday morning came, and he had no money, and no means of getting any. The day was spent in prayer. Five o'clock in the evening came, and yet there was no money. His faith began almost to fail; he broke out into a perspiration; his face was wet with tears. Some one knocked at the door. "Come in," said he. It was Mr. R., the gentleman of whom he had rented the room.
"I called," said Mr. R., "to see how you like your room?"
"Thank you," said Stilling, "I like it very much."
Says Mr. R.—"I thought I would ask you one other question; have you brought any money with you?"
Stilling says he now felt like Habakkuk when the angel took him by the hair of the head to carry him to Babylon. He answered "No; I have no money."
Mr. R. looked at him with surprise, and at length said, "I see how it is; God has sent me to help you."
He immediately left the room, and soon returned with forty dollars in gold.
Stilling says he then felt like Daniel in the lion's den, when Habakkuk brought him his food. He threw himself on the floor, and thanked God with tears. He then went to the college, and paid his fee as well as the best.