A former Universalist preacher loses zeal after doubting the doctrine's spiritual fruit.
Mr. Lewis C. Todd, who was once a Universalist editor and preacher, and subsequently a Methodist, in a work of his published since his change, says:
"I became a preacher of universal salvation, and was ordained as such in Fairfield, Herkimer county, New-York, some eight years ago. I believed the doctrine true, and thought that in proportion as it was propagated, mankind would become good and happy. I preached in different parts, far and near, and itinerated over an extensive region of country, suffering the excesses of heat and cold, and the pitiless peltings of stormy skies and muddy roads. No danger or effort did I consider too great that was possible; for I believe, for a number of years, I should often have rejoiced in the martyr's privilege of attesting my faith. Some years since however, I occasionally reflected, that although the doctrine had spread much further than I anticipated, it did not seem to produce the effects I had expected. This gradually cooled my ardor and diminished my zeal, so that for some years I cared but little whether I preached or not. In this state of mind, believing Universalism to be the true sense of the Bible when rightly construed, and being unable to see any considerable good resulting from the system, I was much inclined to doubt Divine revelation. I could not go entirely into infidelity, nor feel much confidence in revelation.
"I had seen the blessed influences of the doctrine spread out often upon paper, but I could not see them any where else! No—God knows I am honest in this assertion. I do not feel to abuse the denomination; but it is true I could not for my life see any good resulting to society from the sentiment. This conviction rolled in upon my mind with tremendous effect. Alas' thought I, have I been spending my 'labor for that which satisfieth not?' Are all my efforts useless, and only tending to make looser the restraints of religion and virtue?
"I know individuals among them of the most amiable dispositions and characters, that would honor any profession. But I do not think that their doctrines ever made them so. I candidly aver, in the fear of God, that I do not believe the doctrine ever made a single soul any better than he otherwise would
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have been, while it has been the means of removing necessary restraints, and giving latitude to thousands whose propensities and passions needed restraint, whereby they have indulged in criminal pursuits and gone to perdition.
"When I learn of a single drunkard, or gambler, or debauchee, or knave, being reformed in consequence of the Universalist doctrine, I shall think better of its influence than I do now; for it is my solemn opinion that such an instance never occurred. And I would gladly hold up this truth to all the friends of the doctrine, and make it speak out in thunder to their consciences; and then ask them if they will still teach this doctrine to their children.—Millennial Harbinger, Vol. II., p. 492.
"I am personally acquainted," says the editor of the above-named periodical, "with some four or five Universalian preachers, who have joined the church of Christ of which I am a member, who all say that Mr. Todd speaks their experience, or who all concur with him in opinion."